When it Doesn’t Work Out

I was engaged to a boy that I didn’t end up marrying. Date set & all.
But then he told me that he could find someone better. Soooo, that was 😎 cool. 

IT SHATTERED ME, but not because I wasn’t with this guy, (‘cuz, phew that was a close one, right though?!) BUT because I had never been more *spiritually confused in my entire life. 
I started second guessing everything.

I thought I was following the Spirit, so how could it not work out?! It stunk because I all of a sudden doubted my entire relationship with the Holy Ghost—have I been doing it wrong the whole time?!
I was mad, thinking that my faith & my God & my own self, were failing me.

It took me a long while to realize something important:
The engagement was supposed to happen – the marriage was not.

It was supposed to “not work out” the whole time. 
👏🏼It “not working out” was actually it working out perfectly👏🏼 how God had in mind the whole time! 👏🏼 That all *needed* to happen, because it led me to a wrestle—
which led me to learning vital lessons I couldn’t imagine living life without—lessons I would be lost without knowing. Which led me down other paths I would t have done before—
Which kept me on His path— and it all led me to knowing God. 
And when He becomes a reality to you, could you trade that knowledge?
As hard as things were and continue to be, I know God.
And I love Him with a real love. 

I put that in “quotes” because obviously it did all work out *exactly & perfectly & intricately* how it needed to. God Himself told me in a priesthood blessing mine & Ben’s souls are knitted together, so YEAH, it worked out pretty great, if you ask me. All of it part of God’s plan to being with.
(Kind of how I wanted to serve a mission BUT LOOK WHAT I’VE DONE because I didn’t go on one. & like all those other times for everything else in my life…🌝)”

SO TO YOU: when things seems to be falling a part & going differently, HOLD ON.
What seems like ignored desires & unanswered prayers can be GOD INTERVENING—
bringing you to better things.
Intricately part of it all to being with.


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