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Nov 2, 20211 min read

Proving the Missionaries Wrong

Proving the missionaries wrong was all any of it was to me. I was happy & content when I met them! I thought religion was only something...

Nov 2, 20211 min read

Dropped as an Investigator

And I was right there with them. I was nottttttt going back to church. Adamant. Nothing in me wanted to go back for any reason. To them...

Nov 2, 20211 min read

Reunited w/ My Elder

The most intimate thing we could ask someone to do is get baptized. B/c when we ask that, we’re asking them to change almost everything—...

Jan 10, 20212 min read

My heart … beating so fast…

I AM FROM WHERE IT STARTED. I had my lessons with missionaries in the Sacred Grove. The first time I ever spoke to God was in the same...

Sep 13, 20202 min read

houseless.

Ben & I have been taking a lot of showers together to talk. It’s what we do. If you have been following us on social media, you know very...

Jul 19, 20204 min read

it’s INTIMATE

We don’t really realize that this is one of the most intimate things we could ask someone—- intimate because it’s completely personal,...

May 21, 20202 min read

When We Want to Quit

It would be so easy to quit, ya know? To give up. To go back— back where 21yrs of habit, tradition, contentment & culture lay DEEP...

Mar 20, 20203 min read

“Nothing about this woman is Mormon anymore.”

STOP— just stop scrolling for a sec to read this. Ten years. It’s been 10 years and still this morning I woke up & the first thing that...

Aug 11, 20195 min read

Is God Always Good?

Is God good even when things are not? I found myself saying, “God is so good,” the other day after finally hearing good news for once at...

Nov 10, 20181 min read

Choosing God in Hard Times

Ever wonder where God is? Ever yell at Him wondering why things are/were so indescribably hard? Wonder if all your prayers really are...

Oct 26, 20183 min read

Carest Thou Not That I’m Struggling?!’

It is well known the raging storm that caused the apostles to yell, “Carest thou not that we perish?!” But perhaps maybe we can more see...

Oct 22, 20182 min read

Interesting, Isn't It? How Hard & Unnatural This is…

INTERESTING, isn’t it? Because of Isiah’s prophecy, for centuries, many young Jewish women had dreamed & wondered, “will I be chosen as...

Oct 7, 20182 min read

Our MOST Bitter Pain & Anguish of Soul

For 3 ENTIRE DAYS & 3 entire nights – nonstop – he was in the MOST BITTER pain. Torment. No breaks. No let-ups. Just paralyzing anguish...

Aug 21, 20182 min read

TODAY MARKS 9 YEARS OF MY BAPTISM!

*THIS IS IT!! ** This was my apt. when I met the elders!!! This is where it ALLLL started. This is where I told the missionaries I...

Aug 17, 20183 min read

When I Was Single & Unwanted:

HEAR ME OUT: I literally never thought I’d get married. Lot’s of reasons & here’s a quick summary: -I would notice the kind of girls...

Aug 7, 20182 min read

IS GOD PUNISHING ME?!!

IS GOD PUNISHING ME?!! Why did it have to happen to me and not them? Did I do something wrong??? It isn’t fair, it wasn’t supposed to be...

Jul 10, 20182 min read

How 'All is Well' Can Be True DURING Trials

I went to bed a few Saturday’s ago trying to think of an excuse so I wouldn’t have to go to church the next day. I don’t know why,...

Jun 21, 20182 min read

Our Youth Are Struggling (& maybe it's our fault).

IF ONLY people knew how many messages I get every.day. from young teenaged girls who struggle with pornography – maybe we wouldn’t have...

Jun 9, 20182 min read

When Promised Blessings Don’t Come

I JUST got baptized, and I still didn’t know much about anything as far as the gospel and how things worked: like prayer, I still didn’t...

Feb 26, 20182 min read

MY SECRET VIDEO EXCHANGES w/ ELDER CARRAWAY

Five years ago this week Ben came home from his mission. Also 5 years ago this week was our first date anniversary! So, in spirit of this...